O is for Overwhelmed

I’m overwhelmed. I think a lot of people are. Most of us aren’t taking on any extraordinary tasks, we’re just trying to juggle all of our responsibilities. I get overwhelmed when I think of the future. I’m going to have to manage all I’m managing now, plus a real job instead of grad school, kids maybe and an entire house some day. Nevermind all the things I want to do with my life that I haven’t even started yet. The thought of adding more to the mix makes me very anxious and knowing that I can’t handle a normal life makes me depressed. I’m sorry folks, I have no wisdom to offer you on this one. What I do have is silliness in the form of cartoons and a rhyme. It’s easier to get through things when you can laugh at yourself.

I want to be everythingenergizer

to all those in my life.

I’m afraid of failure.

It gives me much strife.

I’m a daughter, a wife,

I’m a sister and friend.

Ph.D. candidate.

Expectation without end.

I live in Quebec.

French I cannot speak.

I should really learn it,

but having time looks bleak.

I have an apartment.

I should cook and clean more.

I’m often too tired,

it’s too much of a chore.

I am a cat owner2014-03-20 08.55.00

Mum to a fur baby.

I feed her and pet her

and she loves me, maybe.

I am a cake addict.

Have to watch what I eat.

I always feel guilty

when I crave something sweet.

I want to be pretty.

I should workout, be fit.

I try, but get nothing.sweet tooth

Must keep at it, can’t quit.

Scientific research.

Must be a team player.

But also make my mark,

oppose the nay-sayer.

I’m to manage the lab.

Keep in working order.

A student still learning,

there’s so much disorder.

I am shy, I am quiet.

I’m a nervous presenter.

To set the example,

supposed to be a mentor.

I’m at the hospital.

I do volunteer.

Got to make time for it,

need to get into gear.

Miss my creative mind,

into art, like to draw.

As a perfectionist,

must be best, show no flaw.

I have anxiety

and I have depression.

Need to work on myself,

make a good impression.

I’m irreplaceable,

at least I aim to be.

I feel I’m a failure,

any could replace me.

I want to do lots more,

but seems to be too much.

I want to be successful,

but don’t have the right touch.

Responsibilities.

Should be handling it all.

Everyone can do it,

but I hit a brick wall.

I’m overwhelmed

Expect too much of me

I do it to myself.

Moderation is key.

 

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19 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. sfashary
    Apr 17, 2014 @ 08:59:34

    I think feeling overwhelmed is a sign that you truly do care about what’s going on around you. That you’re not a floating cloud in space with no clue or care about what’s going on. It happens to the best of us and I think the most important thing is to take a step back and breathe. Laughing is certainly a good way to relieve stress and remind us not to take ourselves too seriously.

    I think your ‘self’ could use a break ^^ expecting too much of your ‘self’ will certainly cause you more stress than you probably need at any given time.

    As for the future, I think and I hope that you will meet someone who will help you manage everything and make you feel that you are never alone in anything that you have to deal with. Good luck with your life ❤ and Happy A to Z

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    • somberscribbler
      Apr 18, 2014 @ 08:34:04

      Thanks for your nice words. I never thought about being overwhelmed as caring about what I’m involved in. I like that, a positive to being overwhelmed. You remind me of a quote. “Don’t take life too seriously; you’ll never get out alive!” A bit morbid, but true!

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  2. emmyleigh
    Apr 17, 2014 @ 10:48:10

    I know what you mean about feeling overwhelmed – when it happens to me I take it as a sign I’m looking too far forward. That’s the time I have to look down at my feet instead of ahead and just concentrate on one step at a time. You don’t have to face all the problems at once – and when they do come there are pleasures that come with them, so don’t try to deal with all the bad stuff without considering that. Best of luck!

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  3. RZT
    Apr 17, 2014 @ 11:44:01

    I know I can’t do everything I would like to do, My mind as the years pass thinks of more and more projects but my body is no longer capable of doing most of them. I have learnt that this is the way of the world. I hope that you will be able to find peace in not being able to do everything you feel you should . . . . . I sure most people would be overwhelmed by the world if they think about it too closely, but most dont and stagger along in a slightly erratic and uncontrolled way and hope for the best.

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  4. nembow
    Apr 17, 2014 @ 13:16:28

    Feeling a bit overwhelmed myself at the moment. Got lots of little jobs I feel I should be getting on with. So I can relate to this. *hugs*. I read a blog post yesterday that you might find helpful: http://findingpositives.wordpress.com/2014/04/16/stress/ 🙂

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  5. mariacatalinaegan
    Apr 17, 2014 @ 13:42:53

    DEEP BREATH, KEEP STRONG! Moderation is GREAT KEY! #AtoZchallenge ☮Peace ☮ ღ ONE ℒℴνℯ ღ ☼ Light ☼ visiting from http://4covert2overt.blogspot.com/

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  6. Gretchen Joy
    Apr 17, 2014 @ 14:49:37

    Oh my sweet friend, it is so easy to be overwhelmed!!! I really loved the style of sharing your thoughts, very raw and genuine. I think you are right, moderation is key… remember to take moments to feel enjoyment and get in touch with yourself.

    Also, OMG your cat is too cute 🙂

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  7. Birgit
    Apr 17, 2014 @ 16:50:41

    My mom told me that I worry about things 5 yrs in advance. I think my middle name is worry. I often worry about things that never happen and have to be “talked down” as I can get into a state. My mom told me “You need to calm the mind” Those words really hit me and I always try to calm the mind. Your poem is beautiful and I wish I could give you a hug

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  8. C.E. Darrell
    Apr 18, 2014 @ 07:00:31

    What a beautiful way of sharing your thoughts and feelings! I know being overwhelmed all too well – uni life + living on bare minimum + no job will do that to a girl! But I think I’ve learned to adapt thanks to management – to-do lists, timetabling, budgeting, and taking time out to just enjoy life. Take everything one thing at a time and organise yourself so that stress isn’t an option 🙂

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  9. zenkatwrites
    Apr 18, 2014 @ 21:22:51

    omigoddess. o was for overwhelmed for me too! i LOVE this poem.

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