Week three of me trying to boost my motivation.
Exercise. I am still running at 5 am during the week. I’ve been going later in the day on the weekends though. Who wants to get up at 5am when they don’t have to?! I ran my whole route without stopping this week. I suppose that’s a milestone. I used to be able to do it no problem without stopping, so I’m not really that proud of myself. I suppose I should celebrate a little if I want to stay motivated. I’m also tempted to weigh myself. It’ll probably be upsetting, but it would be easy to monitor changes. My clothes still feel the same. I think it’s going to a while before I can feel a difference.
Food. I haven’t been doing so well with counting my calories. It’s annoying. I have been eating the same things, so I know I am within my limit. When I get bored of eating the same things everyday I’ll have to pay more attention to counting. I mentioned in a post the other day that I was thinking about cake a lot. Do you think having a cheat meal once a week is ok? It might give me something to look forward to and make it easier to turn down cake during the week. Not a whole cheat day, just a meal…
Work. It was a decent week. I found a few participants for the studies I m working on. The problem is they are mostly French and I can’t speak French. This means I have to chase the research assistant and get him to book appointments. I really don’t like chasing people. It makes me feel like a nag. I wish he would just do it on his own.
Overall, I feel like I should be getting somewhere, but I’m not. I feel healthier, but then I look in the mirror and the image doesn’t match how I feel. It’s disappointing. I’m also annoyed with myself for letting the way I look matter more than work. Work should matter more.
Medusa
Somber Scribbler 
Jun 06, 2014 @ 10:19:58
I blogged today about why some of us are so hard on ourselves, and where it comes from. I included my own “confessions.” So I totally get what you’re saying, and you may, as I have, want to find out the “why” of your self-recriminations. You are doing the best you can. That’s all there is to do? Why are some of us always chasing perfection, knowing that it doesn’t exist? I get it now, and the truth is hard to accept, but liberating. xo
Jun 09, 2014 @ 15:10:59
I enjoyed your blog post. I’m glad you’ve found a good way to deal with it. I know I’m a perfectionist and I’m being irrationally hard on myself, but it doesn’t change the way I feel. I expect more from myself. You’re right though, perfection is not possible, it can’t even be defined.
Jun 06, 2014 @ 13:25:06
Well done you’re doing great! A lot of people use cheat meals as long as the overall calorie intake for the week is less than total calorie burn then in theory you should still lose body fat. There’s a calorie cycling calculator on Shapefit.com which might help. I’m off for a run in a minute. My body is in rebellion!
Jun 09, 2014 @ 15:12:00
I hope you enjoyed your run! I use Fitness Pal on the iphone to track my calories. I haven’t been doing so well with it lately 😦
Jun 06, 2014 @ 13:41:38
You’re sticking to your running routine and that’s huge! I can see what you mean that it doesn’t seem such a big deal to be able to run without stopping when you used to do it easily. But it is a Big Deal!!! You’ve put in the effort to get that back. Be proud of yourself…..and yes, you can celebrate with cake. What about making it a special fancy cake from a patisserie??
Jun 09, 2014 @ 15:13:04
I did celebrate with cake, but I couldn’t stop myself from eating just one piece. Maybe I should stick to cupcakes! lol
Jun 09, 2014 @ 15:18:22
One trick I learn was to bake my own cakes and then freeze them in individual portions. Then you have to plan ahead for cake days due to having to take into account having to defrost them. The tricky bit is not eating the whole cake before it ends up in the freezer.
Jun 09, 2014 @ 15:22:24
Brilliant! I’d have to eat some before the freezer though. There’s no way I could turn down fresh cake! Especially if there is icing involved!