If We Were Having Coffee…..

If we were having coffee, I would wish you a happy Pi Day! You’d probably give me a strange look and then I would change the subject by asking how you were and how your week was.

If we were having coffee, I’d say I worked a lot this week. There are several studies on the go, a grant proposal in the works, a poster to make, student posters to edit, another presentation to make and my own research on top of that. My own research always ends up being at the end of the list. Everything else has an upcoming deadline or someone else depending on it. Those ending up getting pushed forward and my research trails behind.

If we were having coffee, I’d tell you I’ve been communicating with an industry rep this week. I contacted him about using his product in my research over a year ago. We’ve been talking on and off since. Currently, he is having trouble entering the market here and thought I’d have some insight. I am all kinds of nervous about talking to him. When I took a moment to rationalize my anxiety, I realized it was because I thought he was better than me. He is a grown up with a real job, a title, a salary and he represents a company. I always see myself as some incompetent kid, but I’m not anymore, am I? I am almost 30 and a Ph.D. candidate. I know the field, I know the right people, I understand his product, why wouldn’t he want to talk to me? I just feel like a fraud, about to be seen through at any minute.

If we were having coffee, I’d tell you work has been bringing me down lately. I’m not really sure why. There are some things on the go that I like, some that I don’t. Isn’t that the way work usually goes for everyone. I’ve been trying to lift my spirits with the 30 Day Colouring Challenge hosted by The Daily Marker. Colouring always soothes me a bit. Plus, I have new Neocolors and Gelatos to play with. Today is Day 11. Here are my entries so far.

If we were having coffee, I’d tell you I came across a rather nice surprise yesterday. I was starting a page in my art journal, trying a new technique. This technique required me to turn my book upside down to let paint drip down the pages. When I did this, two stencils fell out! One was dragonflies (my favourite!!) and another was a bird on a branch. I knew right away who put them in there. It was my aunt. I checked and sure enough, she was guilty. The last I saw her was at the beginning of February though. That would mean they were hiding in my journal for over a month!! She’s sneaky! I never would have been able to keep quiet that long if I were her.

If we were having coffee, I’d tell you another one of my friends is having a birthday this month. She lives far away and is having a really rough time. I want to do something to cheer her up a bit, but I’m not really sure what to do. I thought of sending her a care package or some happy mail, but I’m not sure what to send. It can’t cost too much and should be small to keep the shipping costs down. I tried to think of her hobbies, but she doesn’t really have any. She spends time with her family and goes to church. I was thinking of making something. Maybe some cards with inspirational quotes or some of our favourite memories. I’m just not sure. Would you enjoy getting that sort of thing in the mail? Do you have any suggestions?

(This conversational coffee post is part of a weekend link-up hosted by Part-Time Monster. Join in the fun!)

11 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Rose Red
    Mar 14, 2015 @ 10:41:17

    I enjoy your art, both the somber and the cheerful


  2. trentpmcd
    Mar 14, 2015 @ 10:51:11

    I think the over-the-shoulder is still my favorite. The drawing next to it looks so heart-breakingly sad.

    You have to push your own research on occasion. It’s good you recognize your own abilities and assets even if there is part deep down that feels your a fraud.

    And when you mention Pi Day I’ll most likely just say a silly pun or two ; )


    • somberscribbler
      Mar 14, 2015 @ 11:32:02

      The funny part is the sad one looks a lot like me! Haha. I need to set better boundaries with my supervisor in order to get my stuff done. She usually forgets the conversation when I bring it up though. Ugh.


  3. Deb
    Mar 14, 2015 @ 11:30:41

    You have had a very busy week indeed! I enjoyed your art work a great deal. Thanks for the coffee and the talk.


  4. stuckinscared
    Mar 14, 2015 @ 12:02:25

    Your art work is fabulous! I was drawn straight away to the sad image, and it’s amazing – moving.
    I don’t know how one would create such emotion in the eyes of a drawing….clearly, you are incredibly gifted!

    Kimmie x


  5. Mental Mama
    Mar 16, 2015 @ 10:48:22

    I’m quite fond of the Serenity Prayer, maybe you could do a custom art piece for her that incorporates that and her favorite flowers? Maybe a dragonfly or two with your new stencil? 🙂


    • somberscribbler
      Mar 16, 2015 @ 16:42:53

      Thanks for the suggestion! Everyone else ignored my question, lol. I looked up the Serenity Prayer, I like it and it’s very appropriate!


      • Mental Mama
        Mar 16, 2015 @ 18:11:30

        I’m not a super religious person, but I’ve always liked that prayer because it’s simple and lovely. After one of my suicide attempts, the last I think, I had the word Serenity and 3 little purple butterflies tattooed on the inside of my wrist.

      • somberscribbler
        Mar 16, 2015 @ 19:03:31

        Sounds like a nice tattoo! I know what you mean. I’m not very religious either, but I can appreciate that prayer.

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