Share Your World 2015 – Week 11

It’s Share Your World again! Here are Cee’s questions for this week…

List 2 things you have to be happy about?

  1. I’m feeling better than I was. At this time last year, my mental state was getting pretty bad. Now, I can still feel the darkness with me. I know it is there, just out of my line of sight, waiting for any sign of weakness. I am trying to fight it. It’s hard, but I have some hope. Hope that things will be better one day. I don’t know when, or how. I just have hope. That keeps the darkness at bay, for now.
  2. I am enjoying my artsy stuff. At this time last year, I was forcing myself to draw because I needed to find something to enjoy and do something besides work. Now, it comes naturally. I look forward to getting my supplies out and creating something, however good or bad it may be.

Do you prefer ketchup or mustard or mayonnaise?  

It depends what I’m putting it on. Ketchup is for regular french fries and tourtiere (meat pie…a Canadian thing). Mustard is for sausages and deli sandwiches (I like honey mustard or Dijon). Both can go on hamburgers. Mayo is just ick. I’m not sure if it is the taste, or the colour I don’t like. Maybe both.

If you were to paint a picture of your childhood, what colors would you use?

I would use basic colours, the kind that would come in a kid’s finger paint set. Probably red, blue, yellow and green. I had a good childhood, an innocent one. I had my family and friends. I learned to read, tie my shoes and ride my bike. I coloured on the walls, scrapped my knees and got sent to my room for being bad. I had a typical childhood, I did everything a kid was supposed to do. For that, I will be forever grateful. I was a serious kid and often had to be reminded to smile. I’m not sure why. I don’t remember what went on in my head as a kid. That’s just the way I was.

Do you prefer a bath or shower?

Shower! It is fastest. There are so many other things I need to do/would rather do.

Bonus question:  What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up?

Last Week: My sister was in town, a bunch of us went out to the Ritz for afternoon tea. It was to celebrate her getting engaged. It was fun to dress up a bit and do something out of the ordinary. The Ritz was quite fancy. They had beautiful chandeliers and a Cinderella staircase. Even the tea nibbles were fancy.

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This Week: I am having a really hard time thinking of anything. All I can think of is all the work I have to get done in the next few days. Let’s go with St. Patrick’s Day celebrations. The parade is this coming weekend and my family, cousins and all, usually go together to watch.

Happy St. Patrick’s Day Everyone!!

Share Your World 2014 – Week 30

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This is the Share Your World Challenge. If you missed the last couple of weeks, more information can be found at Cee’s Photography. Essentially, four questions are asked every week and you have to answer them. Simple and fun! (Thanks Cee!)


List 2 things you have to be happy about.

1. I’m on vacation!! It is a much needed vacation and a big relief. I’m not as happy as I should be though…I have so much work to do, I feel guilty to be taking vacation. I might end up doing some work while I am off.

2. I just finished a sketchbook for the first time ever! Usually they get lost, destroyed or I lose interest in drawing for a few years and feel the need to start over. I think having the blog has really helped me keep up with it.

finished sketchbook

List at least 2 things in nature you find most beautiful.

Just two?! That’s hard!!

1. The Pacific Ocean. I’ve seen the Atlantic many times, but this past winter was the first time I saw the Pacific. I was hiking along a trail on the California coast outside San Fransisco. Wow! It was impressive. The waves were huge! It was the perfect display of how powerful  Mother Nature can be. The colour of the water was gorgeous too, such a unique shade of turquoise. I’m sure this doesn’t have much of a wow-factor if you live near the Pacific, but to someone who is used to the dark waters of the Atlantic, it is definitely a wow! Even this photo (from Google Images) doesn’t do it justice.

pacific ocean

2. Sharks. Some of you are probably thinking “What?!”. Yes, they can be scary and I wouldn’t want to meet one face to face, but it depends on your definition of “beautiful”. I define it as anything that pleases you senses or mind. Sharks please my mind. The idea of a species surviving from a time before the dinosaurs and with evolving so little is truly amazing. Check out the photo (Google images) below. You can’t tell me it’s not kind of cute. The Shark is even smiling!

shark smile

Note: later found out photo was taken by Andrew Fox and Google had cropped off the watermark.

Most of you would still probably prefer this though….

shark costume

Show us a 2 of your favorite photographs. Explain why they are your favorite. If you are not a photographer (serious or otherwise), think of a two favorite scenes in your life and tell us about them.

This is a tough one. Not only am I not a photographer, but most of my favourite pictures have me in them. My absolute favourite photo is one of my close family (minus one person, my aunt) on Christmas Eve about ten years ago. I have the photo in my scrapbook. I’m not sure if I want to post it. I’m kind of nervous about posting pictures that I am in. I guess it’s kind of blurry, so you can’t really see me, whatever, here it is.

Xmas family photo

Anyway, we are at my cousin’s place for Christmas Eve and we are all seated around the sofa smiling and laughing. I’m wearing a Santa Claus hat. My mom and sister are looking at each other and laughing about something. My Dad and I are doing the same and my Gran is on the end of the couch kissing my cousin’s golden retriever, Teddy. The photo just exudes happiness. It is one of the last photos I have of all of us together. It reminds me of happier, simpler times…before we lost Gran and before I was diagnosed.

The second photograph is a scene I have A LOT of pictures of. It’s a sunset over the lake at a resort my family used to go to every summer. The best sunsets I’ve ever seen were at that resort. Seeing this photo reminds me of childhood, old friends and happy family memories. It’s the kind of photo that gives you that prickly feeling behind your eyes and nose whenever you see it.

Balsam sunset

List 2 of your best personality traits.

1. Generosity. I think it’s important to be considerate of others, to help others and pay it forward. It’s also a lot of fun to give/make presents!

2. Hard worker. I think (I hope) this makes me valuable to other people. No matter what it is, work, hobbies, relationships…I give it my all. I may get tired, but I keep trying.

Bonus question:  What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up?

Last Week: I lost weight. I haven’t been weighing myself or measuring, but I’ve noticed my clothes are looser and I feel better. Yay Insanity Workouts!!

This week: Vacation.

Share Your World 2014 – Week 28

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This is the Share Your World Challenge. If you missed the last couple of weeks, more information can be found at Cee’s Photography. Essentially, four questions are asked every week and you have to answer them. Simple and fun! (Thanks Cee!)

Have you ever been a participant in a parade? What did you do?

Unless the elementary school Halloween parade where you show off your costume to the older grades counts then, no, I haven’t been in a parade. I do enjoy parades though, especially the marching bands and bag pipes. Parades are sort of a family thing. When we lived in Toronto, the Santa Claus parade was a big deal. We would either watch it on TV or have lunch at the Royal Ontario Museum and watch from the balcony of the restaurant. Since we’ve moved to Montreal, the St. Patrick’s Day parade has been an annual event. Every year, all of us meet at the same corner downtown to watch the parade. The group has grown over the years. I think we are over 20 now including the friends that join us.

If you were handed free opera tickets, would you go or sell them? Why?

I would do neither. I’ve never been to an opera. The closest I’ve been to an opera is the Phantom of Opera…which is not really an opera at all. I would give them to my supervisor. She loves opera. She has been very generous with me (took me to San Fransisco to celebrate finishing my comps), so it’s the least I could do for her.

Why did you start your blog?

I wanted somewhere that I could express what was going on in my head. So much of life is spent hiding how we really feel or what we are really thinking in order to fit in or do a job. I was hoping to meet people like myself who were coping with mental health issues. I thought being part of a community that understands what it’s like would help me and maybe I could help somebody else. I also wanted to make drawing part of my life again. Most of the people in real life don’t know how much I enjoy drawing. The few that know were actually really surprised.

What is your favorite tradition? (family tradition, church tradition, whatever)

I actually haven’t participated in my favourite family tradition in several years. I makes me really sad when I think about it, but when you want to make a relationship work, you have to compromise. It’s Christmas. For my family, Christmas starts Christmas Eve. The family gets together at my parents or my cousin’s place and we have a casual buffet, eat where ever you want type of dinner. Swedish meatballs, tortiere (Canadian meat pie) and various dessert squares are usually involved. I get to spend time with my younger cousins (which I miss so much) and give them their Christmas presents. Once everyone has left, our immediate family (favourite aunt included) reads “The Polar Express”. We were reading it long before the movie. My sister, hubby and I usually get to open one present each Christmas Eve…usually its new PJs!

Christmas morning starts early with coffee and stockings. After presents are finished we have muffins and fruit for breakfast. We make orange date muffins every year, they are to die for! The rest of the day involves relaxing and enjoying gifts while preparing turkey for dinner. Dinner is always the same; turkey, stuffing, peas, turnip, sweet potato, mashed potato, gracy and cranberry sauce. It’s usually pretty low key.

Since I’ve been with my husband, we’ve had to split Christmas between two families. His family is Finnish and they only celebrate Christmas Eve. So the Eve is spent with them and Christmas Day is with my family. I miss seeing my extended family and our Christmas Eve traditions, but hopefully, my husband’s Christmas will start to feel more homey and will fill that Christmas Eve gap I’ve been feeling.

doodlediary christmas

Bonus question:  What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up?

Last Week: The doctor I’m recruiting patients from was on vacation, so I didn’t have to spend my days looking for study participants. It’s looking pretty dismal, everyone is saying no. It just makes me feel more pathetic and defeated than usual.

This Week: That whole bone spicule protruding from my gums thing happened again. It’s annoying because it’s a constant ache, it scraps against my tongue and eating hurts. This time I didn’t bother with the dentist and the oral pathologist. They weren’t too worried about it when it happened last month. I just pulled the bone out myself. So I am looking forward to that healing and it never happening again. Since I grind my teeth when I sleep, it probably will happen again though. Apparently when you grind your teeth so much you start producing extra bone around your tooth sockets to make them stronger. Bits of bone (spurs) break off and are expelled my the gums. That’s where the bone is coming from.

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