If We Were Having Coffee…..

If we were having coffee, I’d tell you the first week of the new year was a decent one, for me at least. It’s nice to not have to start off by hitting the ground running for a change. I wish this week was as smooth for the rest of the world. Here is hoping week two of 2015 is more peaceful on the international level.

If we were having coffee, it would probably be out of cardboard cups at a coffee shop and you wouldn’t get to see my awesome Jack Skellington mug in person. Good thing I took a picture with my phone! Adding my favourite geek characters into my day makes it more enjoyable!

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My Jack mug!!

If we were having coffee, I’d tell you that my manuscript was finally accepted for publication! That sounds like good news and it is always good to add another first authorship to my CV, but it is also a big headache. The peer-reviewers want me to make some significant changes before they publish. This is the norm and wouldn’t be such a big deal if it were a current study. It’s an older study though and not related to what I am working on right now. When I wrote the paper, I read all the associated literature and knew our data inside out. I submitted the paper and went on to other things (sick leave and our current studies). Now, I am in a completely different head space! I’m going to have to change gears and re-read all the literature as well as go over all the data again before I can even attempt to make the changes they are asking of me. Ugh. I suppose I should just put my head down and keep my eye on the prize. First authorship. First authorship!

If we were having coffee, I’d tell you that it’s wedding season over here again! The reason I say “again” is because I still feel like mine just ended. It was in June of 2013. My little sister got engaged Christmas Day and is planning her big day for this September! I’m thrilled to say she has asked me to be the Maid of Honour! It’s been about two weeks since the engagement and most of it is planned already! No, it’s not magic, lol. During my own wedding process, I hooked up my sister, a then photography student, with my wedding photographer. They worked together for over a year, so now my sister has so much wedding experience (and valuable connections to wedding vendors) that she knows exactly what she wants. We are all so thankful for this because she lives in Thunder Bay and wants to have the wedding here in Montreal. I imagine long distance wedding planning can be difficult!

If we were having coffee, I’d tell you that Ewok (my cat) was in full-blown psycho kitty mode this morning. Thankfully, she has tuckered herself out and is now in her usual post-psycho position belly-up on the floor. She was darting all over the apartment with her ears flat against her head making those little tribble coo sounds. I keep telling her, being called “Ewok” she can’t go around making tribble noises. It’s not right. You can’t have a Star Wars cat making Star Trek sounds. She blatantly ignored me though.

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This pic is from a little while ago. She is looking a lot smaller now since we gave her a bit of a hair cut.

If we were having coffee, I’d tell you I’ve signed up for a few online art workshops; Journal52, The 2015 Art Project and The Documented Life Project – The Journal. I’m a little nervous about sharing my work, but I think it’ll be fun to meet some new people and maybe grow as an artist.

What’s on your mind? What would you say if we were having coffee?

(This conversational coffee post is part of a weekend link-up hosted by Part-Time Monster. Join in the fun!)

Current Plan of Action and a Bit of Ewok

It is a really cold day! I’m in bed with a hot tea right now. Why am I in bed in the middle of the afternoon? Well, for one, it is THAT cold!! Second, it’s because I wanted to hang out with my cat, Ewok. Within the last few days, Ewok has discovered how comfortable it is to nap on soft cozy surfaces. Her spot of choice has been at the end of the bed burrowed into blankets. No matter how many times I bring her in the other room to spend some time with me…she ends up back in her burrow. So I have given up and decided to do things her way. So here we are in bed in the middle of the afternoon.

This may not sound strange to a lot of you, but it is definitely strange behaviour for Ewok. She normally doesn’t like soft spots, she likes to lie on hard surfaces. Even as a kitten, she would usually fall asleep on the floor or the coffee table, never the couch. We later found out this was because she was peeing on the couch. Poor confused kitten. Don’t worry, we were able to clean it! Eventually, we moved and got different furniture, but she still preferred hard surfaces. Her napping spots were usually the coffee table, a stiff carpet or on top of the printer. When she got older, she started sleeping by my head in bed, but only if I moved the pillow and blanket to make room for her. So finding her the last few days lying on the bed, sinking into the mattress surrounded by blankets has been a weird sight. I hope everything is ok with her. I think she’s fine, she’s eating and drinking and happily snorting away over there.

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The reason I want to be around Ewok is because she is a great comfort to me. I’m not sure how to describe how I am feeling right now and listening to her snorting or purring or seeing her cute little smooshy face makes me feel better. I am definitely feeling better than I was in the fall. I’m not overwhelmed and not having the suicidal ideation, but I’m not great either. My sleep is so-so and I feel sort of paralyzed. I have to force myself to do everything, otherwise, I just get lost in my head. Thinking about work. During the holidays I was preoccupied with the dread of going back to grad school full time. Now that I know I’m going to start back part time, I’m not feeling panicky and having nightmares about it. I’m still dreading it though.

The plan is to go back two days a week. I’m going to make a detailed schedule for the next two months and have it approved by psych. When the two months are up, we’ll evaluate and see if I should continue as is or take on more. I think that is fair. Hubby does too. He thinks I always jump into things and take on too much. Maybe he is right.

I hope I can finish my Ph.D. I’m not sure if it’s the depression talking or not, but I think I hate it. I like parts of it. My supervisor is great, I’m learning a lot. I like reading, brainstorming, gathering information, sorting it, teaching it and writing about what I learn. I don’t mind managing students and volunteers either. It’s the constant trouble-shooting, working around barriers, asking for money, trying to find people who qualify to participate and then begging them to participate. When working with human subjects, research depends a lot on the cooperation of other people. It’s not that others don’t want to cooperate, they just don’t want to take on extra work (no matter how minute) or disrupt their routines. I don’t just mean potential participants, I mean doctors, receptionists, technicians, volunteers and other hospital staff. I am always friendly and polite with these people. I even bring them treats, but they are never happy to see me. I am a symbol extra work, change or disruption to their routine. It’s not a pleasant work environment for me. Research is also a lot of rejection and a lot of work for very little success or progress.

Now that I have gotten all these studies through ethics, all I am doing are the things I hate. Thinking of going in fills me with dread. I really hope I can get through it. As a more senior researcher (someone with a Ph.D.), I wont have to do this part anymore. I can send students (like me now), research associates and volunteers off to do it for me. I just don’t think I’ll ever get there. If there were an end in sight, I could probably force myself through, but there is no end. I have lost faith in my project and it feels like I will be a student forever.

Several Sides of Smooshy

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This is Cartoon Craziness Week 4! Again, thanks to the hosts for coming up with such a fun challenge! 🙂 The theme this week is Kids and Pets.

I loved the theme this week. It gave me an excuse to draw cartoons of my cat and babble on about her! Haha. My kid/pet is a Silver Persian named Ewok. She is more affectionately known as “Smooshy” because of her flat little face. She’s four years old is a complete quirky joy. So here are several sides of smooshy….

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Sitting Staring Smooshy. I always wonder what is going through her little kitty head when she sits there staring at me. She always does this at bedtime. She sits and stares at me lying in bed for a while before she jumps up and lies on my face.

Stumped Smooshy. She loves to scamper after her ball, but when it stops she stops, stands beside it and looks at me like “mommy, why’d it stop?!” My mom’s cat, Ruby, plays fetch…she thinks she’s a dog. It’s a lot of fun though. Alas, Ewok is not getting the fetch concept.

Shoulder Smooshy. When Hubby picks her up for a cuddle, she peers over his shoulder all sleepy-eyed while he strokes/scratches her.

Semi-psycho Smooshy. This is what she does when she’s a little riled up and trying to attack something. She gets down low in front with her butt up in the air and wiggles it. Eventually she decides to pounce, often missing her target. She’s a clumsy little kitty.

Psycho-Smoosh. This is Ewok full of energy darting around the apart like a bat out of hell. She’s leaping over chairs, skidding across the floor and making funny chirping sounds. It usually ends with her overshooting her jump onto the CD stand or crashing into something. Good thing her face can’t get any flatter!

Sustenance Smooshy. When we are eating at the table, Ewok sits beside one of us on the floor and gently reaches up to tap her slipper paw on someone’s thigh. I imagine she’s saying “Hello. I’m here. I’m cute. Feed me.” She usually gets a treat as long as she doesn’t use claws when she taps.

Spiral Smooshy. When relaxing, she contorts herself into all sorts of crazy positions. I can’t imagine how they could be comfortable, but she seems to be perfectly happy. My favourite one is when she twists to expose her little pink belly…lol. I wonder if she knows she’s pink underneath all that fluff.

Scurrying Smooshy. This is what she looks like on the balcony. Ewok hates having the wind blow her fur! Whenever a gust of wind blows, she runs for shelter with her belly almost rubbing the ground, lol. It’s funny to see.

And here is the real Smooshy, just for fun!

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Cartoon Craziness – Super Silliness!

cartoon-craziness-challenge-bannerHere’s week 3 of the Cartoon Craziness Challenge. The theme was superhero. Click “week 3” to learn more. Thanks to the hosts of this challenge, I love to have an excuse to doodle.

Superheroes are a big thing over here. Hubby loves them (especially the DC Universe). I decided to draw Wonder Woman. I had to use one of hubby’s action figures to help since Wonder Woman’s proportions are a little different from my usual cartoons! Excuse the left over eraser bit by her elbow. I was too lazy to scan it again.

Why Wonder Woman? She is one of the few females in a male-dominated superhero universe. Since she is a demigod, it makes sense that she has superpowers. She can fly with her magic boots and drive an invisible plane. She also has good morals, i.e. the “lasso of truth” which makes her a good role model and although she has questionable fashion sense, she is smokin’ hot!

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I also decided I’d attempt to draw myself as a superhero. If I were a superhero, I’d want to be able to fly and be strong, like Superman, but also clever and crafty like Batman and be built like Wonder Woman. It wouldn’t hurt to be a demigod either. I’d go with a Steampunk costume that has a utility belt to hold all my Steampunk gadgets. My cat, Ewok, would be my superkitty sidekick.

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Share Your World 2014 – Week 25

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This is the Share Your World Challenge. If you missed the last couple of weeks, more information can be found at Cee’s Photography. Essentially, four questions are asked every week and you have to answer them. Simple and fun!

What is your favorite type of dog?  (can be anything from a specific breed, a stuffed animal, drawing, cartoon or character in a movie or TV show)

Today, my favourite type of dog is a Bernese Mountain Dog. They are beautiful dogs and they look perfect for hugging! I have never had a pet dog before, but I always loved them growing up. I collected Puppy in My Pocket. They were small dog figurines. Does anyone remember these? They were huge for kids in the 90s. My favourite was a Border Collie named Jemma. My sister and I would spend hours playing with them. We must have had at least 100 between the two of us.  I can still remember all their names and breeds. Ridiculous the things your brain remembers huh? lol. I couldn’t bare to give up my collection, so I still have them all in my parents’ attic.

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Bernese Mountain Dog Puppy from Daily Puppy

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Jemma, Puppy in my Pocket from ronsrescuedtreasures

 

Name one thing not many people know about you.

I am a huge geek! Most people think it’s just my husband because of his Batman obsession and action figure collections, but I am a geek too. Maybe a bit of a closet geek. It doesn’t get a chance to come across in my everyday life. I love Star Wars. My cat’s name, Ewok, was my idea, not hubby’s. I like Star Trek too. Is it a sin to like both? I watch/read sci-fi and fantasy. I appreciate all things Disney and Lego. I cherish old school cartoons and toys and have a huge collection of character t-shirts that I never get to wear.

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Ewok painting with me.

Have you ever gone scuba diving?  If you haven’t, would you want to?

I have never gone scuba diving. The thought of it used to scare me, but no so much anymore. I went snorkeling for the first time last summer and absolutely loved it. I think I’d be open to trying scuba if the opportunity presented itself. I wouldn’t want to go extremely deep or into underwater caves. Those ideas still scare me. I think I’ve watched too many horror movies or something, lol.

What was the most important event in your life last week? (anything goes it can be a good nights sleep, finished a reading book, winning the lottery, or getting married)

Most important? Hmm, it depends how you define “important”. It has been a tough week, so I’m going to go with a definition of most impact. My husband’s friend from his time in Africa died. It was deemed a suicide. We found out about it through Facebook. I had never met the man, but I felt like I knew him through my husband’s stories. I also enjoyed the emails he wrote us, although those had been less frequent this past year. It was a real shock and I have all sorts of mixed feelings and unanswered questions.

Bonus question:  What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up?

Last Week: I am grateful for having my health and another birthday. The events of the past week have reinforced this soooo much.

This Week: Our one year wedding anniversary is this week. I’m looking forward to doing something to celebrate. I have no ideas yet, but I’m sure we’ll come up with something. 🙂

 

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